Big Hearing Girl

After years of living under the watchful eyes of Grandpa and Aunt Jane, my mother and father bought our new house the summer of 1963.  Buying that house was a big deal for them because Mommy and Daddy were Deaf and after a lifetime of struggle and exclusion this house was a declaration of faith in themselves and more importantly their independence.  

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The Power of Standing Up to the Stigma of Mental Illness. (Reprinted from "Take The Lead Women")

I guarded the secret like it was a magician’s trick because crazy and unstable does not get to work at the Goodman Theater, does not get invited to fabulous parties. All that crazy and unstable get is judged.

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Cleaning Out the Junk Drawer (Reprinted from Airmail. Women of Letters)

I am a bad person. Not a bad person in a deviant, psychotic kind of way, but a bad person in a disorganized, slovenly kind of way. It's the piles of papers to be filed, runaway shoes to capture, articles to read, drawers to sort out, Apple music to organize and RSVPs to be RSVPed that simply overrun my sanity and desire for a pristine, well-ordered life.

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Field of Deaf Dreams (Reprinted from Medium.com)

I remember sitting in the back seat for the 3-hour drive to Alumni day at the New Jersey Residential School for the Deaf. I’m wearing a pale flowered shift made soft from afternoons of fluttering on the clothesline and I could see the anticipation in Mommy and Daddy’s hands as they talked about the day to come in sign language. They were Deaf, I was their hearing daughter and the signs that tumbled from their hands was my first language, my “native hand.”

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Arlene Malinowski
Zipless- (Reprinted with Permission-Chicago Story Press)

This is what we are reading in class: “The zipless fuck was more than a fuck. It was an ideal. Zipless because when you came together zippers fell away like rose petals, underwear blew off in one breath like dandelion fluff. Tongues intertwined and turned liquid.”

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Into the Blue

I’ve always prided myself on being a “happy, optimistic and motivated person.” I’ve even bragged about it but out of nowhere Depression just crept in through a basement window and I found him sitting there with his feet up on my nice, new mushroom colored couch and he decided to stay.

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Offensive Comments About Depression and Suicide

Suicides of Anthony Bourdain, Kate Spade and Robin Williams generated negative and insensitive comments. TV personality Briana DeJesus, Actor Val Kilmer and Punk Rock icon, actor and writer Henry Rollins viciously criticized those who commit suicide after battles with depression. The follow up responses from these celebrities were varied and telling.

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Kicking the Habit

I grew up in Paterson, NJ. It was a tough neighborhood where the second graders cursed, the nuns smoked and the dogs snarled. But the most feared group in all of Paterson… the ones who terrorized children… the ones who promised that retribution would be swift and merciless… was not the Jersey Mob but the Jersey Moms.

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You're Breaking My Heart

He’s the one whose smile is like looking into the heart of dream and he smells like an autumn afternoon. He’s that boyfriend, the one you wait for hoping that he’ll stop in even for just a moment.

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Ed Anderson
Thank You Mr Jobs

It was a splurge- over $3,200.00 and one that I allowed my husband to indulge me in. He’s terrific like that. We lived in a 2 room dorm apt at UCLA.

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Ed Anderson